but I still have a meet coming up
and nationals or not
I still have to get ready
there is no other choice
stopping would be like jumping from a moving car
and not even being able to explain why
I’m so not interested in the
canned speech about all the
opportunities a gymnast
has besides an Olympic medal
so I get ready
and I […]

it’s not anything important
like ending hunger
or world peace
but I do not know what
to do about the
Homecoming problem
Mel left a voice mail
threatening to arrange my date herself
and since I know that will default me to TJ
I must make a decision.
I walk through our woods to a small park
where there is a pond and some benches
and a […]

I drive back home
my head swimming
and my heart feeling
like maybe it’s been squeezed
just a little too hard
I’ve never had time for boys
never had time for life outside the gym
and the one time I did
I made the biggest mistake of my life
one I still think about
and regret
every
single
day
I wonder what Ben would think if he knew
If he […]