God kept his half of the bargain
so I now must find a way to keep mine
so I start at the beginning
or what I think is the beginning
and tell Him
of every place that I have failed
the list long
and humiliating
but when I arrive at Ethan
I get stuck
like I need to do more than confess my own failure
but God’s as well
because up until this moment
I never saw how angry I was with God

for his silence