I stay
despite my face
despite what happened
because that’s what gymnasts do
Dad is here
and Gabby must have made some phone calls
because before my first rotation
I spot Angie and Mel on the bleachers
but I don’t cry until I see
Ben
a pained expression on his face
I resist the urge to go running over
because I can’t get near him anyway
but him being here
coming all this way
fills me

he blows me a kiss

and I feel it
like a fresh warm breeze
after a long winter