“Again.” the coach says from his perch next to the bar
I look up from where I have fallen
again
I adjust my grips
and jump up to grab the bar again

I’m still off

after doing better for a while
I seem to be slipping again
I know now that it’s not my body
but my mind
and my concentration
that is the problem

I tell myself that after I hear from the detective
after I talk to Ben
after I get Ethan out of my head
then I will be able to focus
completely
on the Tri-Cup

but Coach is wearing an exasperated look
that tells me I might not have that long