it’s not anything important
like ending hunger
or world peace
but I do not know what
to do about the
Homecoming problem

Mel left a voice mail
threatening to arrange my date herself
and since I know that will default me to TJ
I must make a decision.

I walk through our woods to a small park
where there is a pond and some benches
and a lot of quiet

It seems like such a petty matter to
ask God about it
almost as if he might shake his head
at my self-centeredness
so I cannot bring myself to pray
but I sit cross-legged near the pond
and try to think
of what the choice should be

If I agree to TJ (and Mel promises he will do the asking)
and Ben finds out
what would happen?
would he be relieved?
hurt?
would I ruin
this strange start of
whatever it is we have?

But if I ask Ben to take me
would he think that I’m
getting too serious
or that it is just some
silly high school thing?

I sit there for a long time,
until the sky has darkened
and the crickets begin their song

I wish that they
would sing an answer for me.