I get the text at 6am,
still dripping from my
shower.

Ben is at school but is thinking of me.

I have told no one
about him
a secret not because
of him
but because of me

How can you feel
like this after just
three hours together?

It seems wrong
somehow
that we need weeks
and months
to be connected
together

so I try to pretend
that it is just silly fun
a new friend

but I am lying to myself
and I know it.